Bewildered/Wilderness

June 25

“I will even make a way in the wilderness” (Isaiah 43:19).

God has a way of moving you through even the hardest of circumstances. Just trust Him through the entire process. He will bring you out of your personal wilderness.-Creflo Dollar

I woke up this morning in disgust, I was confused and up set for a moment until i realized this battle is not mine and that God will come threw for me and direct my path. I know that he will help me with everything. Im sleep was interrupted with; your broke, in debt, you parents are broke, following by the thought "Now Im in at St. John's University how am I going to pay this admissions deposit, if i have no money and no Job?" Yesterday my father came to me and told me that I should ask my uncle [his brother], for the deposit money, which upset the mess out of me. Im appalled at the fact that the reason I dont have any money is because of my parents[I dont want to blame them but they are the root of the problem in hind sight, forgive me Lord] I am a dependent until Im 24, and when I got ready for my financial aid check to come through, it didn't. Financial Aid said my parents made too much. So the money Im suppose to get I can't have because of my parents, but my parents don't have any money, so where dose that leave me. Disgusted! Appalled! Bewildered!

Bewildered-–adjective

completely puzzled or confused; perplexed.

In the state of being bewildered mentally, I am in the wilderness an isolated land or body of water where physical direction is unrecognizable. But what the devil dont know it that I dont walk by sight i walk by FAITH [For We walk by faith and not my sight 2 Corinthians 5:7] So even if Im in the wilderness I still have a compass, my compass being Christ. Even if Im in the middle of the ocean, there is a lighthouse. Even if Im in the desert, there is a star. Ima make if out blessed rather you like it or not.

St. John's University, Im In-Video

Faith Hike

Faith 4:7

Faith 4(number of Material completeness) and 7( number of Spiritual completeness)

June 24

“If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you” (Matthew 17:20).

Faith is the currency needed to get things to happen in God’s Kingdom. Even the smallest amount of faith has the ability to remove any obstacle standing in your path.- Creflo Dollar

Faith-The assent of the mind to the truth of a proposition advanced by another; belief, or probable evidence of any kind. (KJV Definition)

Faith-the obligation of loyalty or fidelity to a person, promise,engagement, etc.:

the observance of this obligation; fidelity to one's promise,oath, allegiance, etc.:

He was the only one who proved hisfaith during our recent troubles (Dictionary.com)

This is one thing I know I have. Through My Faith I am able to endure through my Faith I am able to be still through my Faith i am able to be silent through my Faith I am able to proceed through my Faith I am able to listen, be obedient, and through my Faith I am able to submit. Through my Faith I am able to surrender all; all my problems, burdens, battles, shortfalls, failures, struggles, and addictions.

I have made my promise to live and trust in God for as long as I live. I no longer have Faith of a mustard seed my faith is much more than that. Things I struggle with are a little more complex, I am working on for this month is obedience and submission and how to bridge those two the level of my faith.

OBE'DIENT, a. L. obediens. Submissive to authority; yielding compliance with commands, orders or injunctions; performing what is required, or abstaining from what is forbid.

SUBMIT', v.i. To surrender; to yield one's person to the power of another; to give up resistance.

Conversation with me and my New FIC Heather Kearney

Heather Kearney June 24 at 3:00am

wait let be find a tithes.........
10:23pmMe

lol... your funny!!! ok
10:24pmCyndria

no serious but its not to far from The City
10:25pmMe

oh, ok do you live close to the church?
10:26pmCyndria

no i live in Lakewood, Cerritos area by the 91 and the 405

right in the middle
10:27pmMe

oh ,ok is it bishop McClendons church
10:27pmCyndria

yeah!
10:28pmMe

Awesomeness!!! sounds great I didnt realize he was that close!
10:30pmCyndria

oh have you seen him before
10:34pmMe

oh yeah on tv
10:36pmCyndria

lol that counts, cuz aari and aaron didnt and where astonished
10:43pmMe

yeah, i am too ill be there?
10:43pmCyndria

you are too what?
10:45pmMe

I am amazed!!!lol
10:47pmCyndria

lol, im sorry Heather im a lil slow, elaborate for me I know aari and aaron situation cus they grew up Baptist but u i dont know
10:54pmMe

whats there situation? i dont get it?..lol
10:57pmCyndria

just the difference in denominations, and how baptist are more likely to restraint the Holy Spirit then letting it flow and take complete control of the service.
11:02pmCyndria

Holiness denominations COGIC, Apostolic, some non denom. be lettin the Holy Spirit have its way to the point of the pastor not preaching but going into prophesy...........
11:03pmMe

oh,yeah i totally understand i gotcha i was raised in the pentecostal church
11:03pmCyndria

thats whats up, you can undersatnd where im coming from

when I say I grew backwards in Faith so to speek
11:04pmMe

Yeah, what about you what denomination are you?
11:04pmCyndria

ummmmm....
11:06pmCyndria

first i was cogic till 7 then full harvest non denomination so idk cus sometime i go to cogic and pentecostal and be expecting more u know

but sometimes it just me and my thurst needing to go back to FHI
11:09pmMe

oh ok yeah i got you!
11:12pmCyndria

but lately i been trying to get the basics, cuz from growing but around sucha high annoiting i sometimes did understand what was goin on

but since going back i think i can hang now
11:18pmMe

Well yeah when your younger alot of times you dont understand the anointing and how the holy ghost moves but the more you begin to grow in your personal relationship with God he will reveal him self to you ya know
11:18pmCyndria

exactly!
11:20pmCyndria

and being inexperienced, in the word and knowledge of Gods works and have you lost too
11:22pmCyndria

cuz now i got some word and some knowledge and experience under my belt its so easy to get in
11:23pmCyndria

get in= receive
11:27pmMe

Yeah, God wants us to be mature in his word so that we can receive all the benefits that he has for us thus understanding and moving under the anointing of God in our daily llives
11:28pmCyndria

lol wow.......
11:28pmMe

I meant to say that God wants us to be mature in his Word!
11:29pmCyndria

which i am so trying to do right now in my life mature myself in his word.
11:34pmMe

Well, you cant do it alone it takes the power of the A Holy Ghost living in you to live a life thats pleasing in the sight of God.Because with out the Holy Ghost we can do nothing it is the Holy Ghost that gives us power to resist temptation Act 1:8
11:35pmMe

Acts 1:8 but you shall recieve power when the Holy Spirit has come up on you;....
11:35pmCyndria

Ok! know that.
11:37pmMe

yeah, so i mean when ever we try to do something with in our selves we tend to fail you know atleast that applys to me ya know
11:40pmCyndria

"What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you? You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures."
11:41pmCyndria

why cant i find the book and scpriture # for these im so bad at this
11:42pmCyndria

hey do me a favor copy this conversation and send it to me in my inbox no i can put it n my FAith blog
11:44pmCyndria

but yeah i cant find it, but this on did it for me and really opened but my eyes
11:44pmMe

Whats a faith blog?
11:46pmCyndria

for me its how you keep track of your spiritual growth and relationship in christ with friends. I do daily devotionals on there and write down everything that manifest and i want to manifest

conformations, revelations etc
11:47pmMe

Oh ok it James 4:1 that scripture you put up
11:47pmCyndria

ok ill have to attach that thanks heather
11:48pmMe

Yeah your welcome
11:49pmCyndria

the reason why i do a faith blog cuz ima writer and kinda of at this moment in my faith a introvert
11:50pmCyndria

so i have to go threw my gift when i seek so completely get in
11:52pmMe

oh ok well girl it was great talking to you Iam kinda tired so i am going to go to sleep send me your email
11:53pmCyndria

Good Sleep

June 23

“When thou liest down, thou shalt not be afraid: yea, thou shalt lie down, and thy sleep shall be sweet” (Proverbs 3:24).

Getting a good night’s sleep is a promise of God. Release your faith for it.-Creflo Dollar

St. Johns University, Im In

A Message I wrote to my BestFriend Aarion

On another note, the reason why I was calling you was because I did a test through to St. Johns so I wouldn't get lost tomorrow for the transfer event day. At first I was like im just going to go and walk around and not worry about the admissions process and my chances Im just gone give it to God and keep it there. One thing I a most defiantly working on is Obedience to God ( like my bishop said overtaking of time space and distance d=rt u mad?!) so I was like I need to make sure Im doing what Im suppose to be doing and be were Im pose to be at so I can be blessed. Any ways so I ended up goin to admissions this boy name Jimmy walked me and I just wanted to ask questions about like what is the admissions process like and how long and financial aid. Guess who ends up being the counselor available Aubrey Manella. the Girl that gave you lip and the same girl that messed up my appointment for Transfer Event Day she put me a on a day that was canceled and didnt even call me back to change it. Come to find out after I acted her the questions necessary. I go and check and see what time I need to come in for a appointment which she said I quote " come in any time between 9-3. The front desk was like you not on here did you make the appointment you not registered "THE DEVIL IS A MUF@#@'IN LIE" lol im like omg but "No weapon, or dumb broad formed against me shall prosper" cuz I fixed it appointment at 1130. so upon talking to her she seemed uncomfortable she tried to act like she didn't remember me like she know she messed up and did care to fix the problem. Yo Bad?!

But I milked her I asked her what were my chances of getting in and what the process was like and do the look at SAT scores? I have a good Chance, and the dont look a SAT scores.

This school means restoration for me I walked around I went to church it is beautiful, peaceful the people were really nice I seen white collars ( ministers) walking around smiling " God bless U" lol.

I walk into one of the chapels and they had like a pray book were when you visit you write down a prayer request. students had down "please pray that I pass all my summer classes In Jesus name" I was like thats tight. So I wrote in existence "....after accepted to ST.JU let everything that my heart desires to be manifested......."

Ok Im done Dont be mad at the book I wrote, lol

Facebook Status after I was excepted to St. J

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Cyndria 'Annise Abernathy God is So Good! I am so Blessed I've just been accepted to St. Johns University Fall'10 w/scholarship attending as a Professional Studies student in Public Relations. No words in any language on Earth can express my gratitude, how gratefull I am to Christ for letting me see the manifestation of his Victory. I need to go home an prepare to move completely. Dont worry I will have a going away party. Yea! Im so excited.

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Courtney Butler

Congrats girl!!

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Cyndria 'Annise Abernathy

Thank you Courtney

God Meant It

June 12

“But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive” (Genesis 50:20).

Many times God uses the negative things that happen in life to work out for our benefit. He is not the author of evil, but He can turn things around in your favor.- Creflo Dollar

How timely is this Devotional, this week was a heartbreak, atlease thats what it felt like. It was very difficult; I was expecting some money to come through for me in my financial aid but turns out I'm not going to get it because I don't qualify for my Pell Grant "," quote on quote. The painful thing about is its is not even my fault my parents made to much last year, unfair. Yes I did have a emotional meltdown, all i could think was why! why is this happening to me why can't things just happened for me why do I have to be in this drought?????

My Best Friend in Christ told me not to worry and that God has something bigger and better out in stored, and that this is only an humbling time. Awaiting on the money to come all I could think is all I need is this money and I'm on. But like it says in Psalms 62:1 "For God alone my soul wait in silence, for him comes my salvation."

" Oh Lord I praise you for opening my eyes for directing me in the right path, for processing and preparing me for this new journey, new beginning to New York. I praise you for your conformation and ordering my steps in order to be on the path that you willed me to be on. i praise you for this day I praise you for life abundantly. In Jesus name, Amen."

The God Gifted Friend

Creflo Dollar Ministries - Daily Devotionals:
June 11

“A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother” (Proverbs 18:24).

Jesus is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. He will never let you down!"

Right now I am in Riverside spending time with my best friend Aarion its her Graduation. Aside from being so proud of her, I really needed this trip. Family is everything. Yes I agree, but a friend, I mean a God gifted friend, will lift you you in the most genuine way ever possible; not because its what they should say or do, but because it is flowing from their heart. I am extremely picky about friends thats why I praise God for gifting me a true friend. Because I remember the days when It was just me and God, Christ was my bestfriend and will always be. Jesus was there when everyone literally ostracized me, but through that situation I and Christ bond has remained stronger than any person reachable, relatable on earth.

Ask Receive, Seek Find

For everyone who asks receives; those who seek find; and to those who knock, the door will be opened.

Matthew 7:8

Seek and you will find. It is awesome to know that God is that easy to reach. The inkling of knowing that he is there waiting on me to seek him, because he is always near. Knowing how close, protective, and eager God is brings me comfort and joy.

".......and those who knock the door will open," that is conformation. He is awaiting and available to me. If I just seek him. God is not like man when you knock and man doesn't want to be bothered the pretend they are not home. I know there is a secret place that I can go and I wont be ignored or turned down.

"For everyone who ask receives...." thats the first thing I learned as a child is to seek and try Christ for myself.