Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Sorry I Abandoned You

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I feel bad because its been a whole entire mouth since i blogged and so much has happened, from my Aunt visiting form NY to my trip to The bAy, and now starting Fall semester.

For an excuse. I would say, I stopped writing because I was stressed out, its crunch time. My goal is getting closer and closer and I'm feeling the pressure. My goals by the end of this year consist of: purchasing a car, finding an University, and hopefully move. When I set these goals it may seem outlandish for some people through my circumstances but in my opinion anything's tangible.



Video of The BAy trip

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Song of the Moment

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This video really touched home, it expresses how I feel about myself at this particular point in my life. This song up lifts the anxiety, acknowledging that I am not the only girl who has felt this difference.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

HOLD on 2 HOPE: THE TRANSITION

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When I decided to Transfer from Southern University and A&M College an HBCU ( Historically Black College an University) I didn't hesitate because it had always been in the back of my head since the second semester of my freshmen year. Why? well maybe I know to much, or got turned of. The straw that broke the camels back (known by the closest) came at the right time to the point were i had no choice. For example, your New-Boo is kind of different, unlike no other guy you've been with. New-Boo has his little moments of wried jealousy (where you at? been? going?) , you seen the signs but you keep going and you tell your self if it happened again your leaving. Then it happened but you saw it coming then the next time he SLAPS you. It took for the extreme and appalling; crossing of the line; got better then worse then the bad before the better; for you to realize that things are not going to get any better so I gotta bounce. Saying good bye is easy for the most, but the transition stage sucks ass, you miss the title, everything that goes with the status, the Oooos, Ahhhhs, awwws all the automatopia's. Then you think Damn I should go back it was good, it wasn't that bad. During this transition stage you have to regroup. At this point I feel this is a critical point of my life; and of coures education; I want to translate righ so i can grow and be stronger like a tree I dont want to here I told you so but this is hard. I hear the advise but i want to trasnlate my own way, i want to go to the school i want to go to not to close but not to far in the northern part of the state. It looks like i have no choice. Its August and its open to apply for Spring which is my personal deadline for me to leave, but damn why all CSU have to be close to undergraduates lower divison transfers except for East Bay, Sacramento, and the too near Dominguez Hills. The best out of 3 Sacramento. I just found out this information today and it gives me HOPE. Hope for my transition.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Regular Monday

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Today is Monday and just like every Monday in the World it is the beginning of the work week. But for a childcare provider its a reunion. Its so exciting, I feel so welcomed and invited when i see my kids on Mondays they miss me. I could barely get into the door (literally) with the 1 year old (lonnie) blocking the door and the 3 year old (Mi Mi) screaming my name. With a welcome like that I had to be spontaneous and do something we rarely to on Mon, go to the park.

In between pushes on the swing i tried to get a dating planner going for the weekend. I believe in dating friends (No Homo) meaning if you just meet a interesting person in class, and the girl seems to share a lot of common interest and could grow from being associate to "Girls" and possibly BFF. Relationships are the same rather your with a boy or a girl gay or straight, people need attention. Some need one on one time, petting, comfort, intimacy, gifts. Dont act like you never had to hold your girl-friends hand and comfort her when that guy dumped her, then by the end of the night bought her dinner and let her spend the night. These simply lil things count and make our relationships on both sides flourish. I learn this throw my friend and big sister Kristy ( who looks exactly like Tasha Smith) she would pick me up and got to the grocery store buy strawberries and whip cream and **grapes~~~~ and go to the leave and talk. That was a date because it was all on her; love her for that. So as i was saying I tried to call my long time friend but she has been so occupied with this guy and it really sucks cuz she dose it all the time; get with a guy for a week indulge all her time in him break up with him and then find someone else for the next week, i haven't seen her in a month.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Acting like a Kid, Mother

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Sitting here waiting for my mother who tells me we need to go to church for communion. We're already 2hrs late for church; she playing the Jelly POP game off direct TV. Continuously telling us to hurry up and get ready when we got ready 1 hrs 3hrs be for we eat 1 hr ago. My mother is 46 and still as young as she feels, seeing that she cant get away from a game.

Save Darfur

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Genocide in Darfur- termed the world’s worst humanitarian crisis by the United Nations and United States respectively. This terrible situation has been described as a group murder, systemic rape, harassment, torching and looting villages. Since the beginning of the conflict 400,000 people have been killed and 2 million displaced.

Conflict ignited in early 2003, when the invasion of a region targeted by the Sudanese government, said to be neglected by Khartoum.

Darfur has faced many years of tension overland and grazing rights. Darfur means home of the Fur people, an African tribe that settle on the land in early civilization.

Invasion was inflicted by the Janjaweed. Janjaweed militiamen are primarily members of nomadic Arab tribes who've long been at odds with Darfur's settled African farmers.

Dr. Braima, from Darfur, chairmen of board of directors Save Darfur and professor at Southern University said, “Government (Sudan) is bringing Arabs from surrounding and out of country, to do the killings, raping, and destroy the villages.”

Sudanese government denies being in control of Janjaweed and President Omar al-Bashir called them “thieves and gangsters”. Refugees say that before Janjaweed attacks Sudanese government aircraft “soften” land with helicopters.

December 2008 the United Nations released the Sudan Accountability and Divestment Act. This Act was to mandate and stop genocide, return indigenous people to land, send humanitarian aid to Darfur and hold offenders to national court.

Sadly, Sudan and Divestment Act failed. The act stated that only if Sudanese government agrees upon contract will the Act be mandated. “Peace is found through force not negotiation,” Dr. Braima stated.

During the interview with Dr. Braima he shared with us the agenda for Save Darfur. The 2008 Olympics will take place in China in reference to Darfur they will not boycott Olympics but the will recruit athletes to wear a Save Darfur T-shirt.

More information log on to savedarfur.org

Hip Hop Beyond Beats and Rhymes

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The objectifying of women, the portraying of black men in a negative light, the music displays a negative viewpoint on the black community as a whole. The biggest controversy of Hip-Hop will it ever end? Let’s take a look at black men in Hip-Hop and in general. Negative views and images of black men on TV or through Hip-Hop music are brainwashing young black men into being, hard, violent, insensitive, and to treat women as an object. Hip-Hop also portrays a sense of homoerotism and misogyny in music video and rap lyrics.


Looking at Hip-Hop from a women point of view is a much distorted view. We love Hip-Hop it is as much our culture as it is for black men, but the more and more I listen the more and more I become appalled. Sitting down listening to a regular rap album; for respectable black women; she becomes uncomfortable, disgusted and conflicted with her culture and the music that she loves. What she is hearing is a black man her “brother” referring to her as all kinds of “Bitches and Whores”, basically he is implying that a black women in less for sex isn’t worth anything. As a result 61% of rape victims are under 18. The rapper also implies that his “Boy’s” come first before any thing. Rappers today impose that women should be objectified as sex toys, but on the other hand signify brotherly love against women, homosexuals, punks; men that show sensitivity. Rappers idolize money, womanizing, and being hard. Listening to rap albums rappers implies homoerotism, and misogyny. Misogyny is the hatred of women moreover homoerotism is the portraying of homosexual desire, Rappers portray both in music lyrics.


Television portrays black men as being a one trick pony. Young black men have no one to look up to on TV except rappers and professional athletes. These are professions that do not require academic degrees. Young black men grow up watching BET and are brainwashed into thinking they don’t need a higher education and idolize making money the easy way, as rappers imply hustling. Hustling means getting money any way a person can include stealing, sealing drugs, or through violence. BET is known to be the cancer of black men. This network airs music video that does involve rappers throwing money at the camera, a dozen half-naked women shaking the backsides against the rapper, and violence. Rap music implies hyper masculinity, men being manly and hard. Meaning they show men with their shirts off implying that they are dangerous. Jail, crime, gangs and other negative images are reflected in Hip-Hop music. Do to this young black men are 14 times more likely to become a victim of gun violence. BET hardly ever shows high educated professional black men; instead show black men as being non professional, uneducated, violent, hard, and disrespectful to women.


Will the controversy ever end? My feelings for this subject hunt me everyday. I feel very conflicted with my culture, and overwhelmingly uncomfortable with the view of black men, and how the see black women. Sometimes it is hard to believe that black men see us that way, when I hear the filthy lyrics I ask myself “Who are they talking about are these horrible women really out there?” Women who allow men to call them out of their names, and treat them like objects. Rappers make it seem as if they never meet a respectable woman in their entire lives. Of course it can be stopped but it will take the entire black community to do so with it be in the next 10 years? No, but we will have to fight because we are talking about the health of our culture, it has to change.

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I am a 23 years old inspired journalist/ PR studying mass communications. Transferring from Southern University (HBCU) to St. John's University.
 

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